The conflicting continuam

I know that there is more to this life.

The continued conflicting thougths that race through my mind can truly drive me crazy. All should be love, beauty, peace, etc. etc. etc. But right now I feel forced by necessaity to continue an occupation that I dread for pure survival. That needs to change and I know this and I know it will. So the continued question is what is my passion and what is it that I want to do with what is left with my existance? Hmmm so much to ponder.

I want to be able to spend more time with my boys, write and make a difference to this world....this environment! They need a home!!!! and so do their children and so on and so on and so on...And this reminds me of something I wrote on Earth Day, April 20, 1990 - and it just so happens that April 20th is my dad's bday. Hmmmm...coinkydink!

She sits alone
watching her memories of yesterday
forseeing tomorrow
but feeling lonely today

She wonders why:

The skies are dark and it's windy
her sun is sleeping.

They say that are home is slowly fading-
corroded corruption

It's hard as hell being here homeless-
ponder being breathless.

Yes today she is still lonely
just now more afraid

'Cause there are kids in this house that have dreams-
they dream about yesterday
having fun today

There must be a way to guarantee their tomorrow.

She needs help to try.